urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc masochisticnarc masochisticnarc 2007-12-12T01:58:51Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:67437 2007-12-12T01:58:51Z 2007-12-12T01:58:51Z ill be in my basement room with a needle and a spoon and another girl to take my pain away urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:67142 2007-11-28T00:16:14Z 2007-11-28T00:16:14Z each one falls<br />out all the time<br />until the day<br />you die its an upward<br />sloped line<br />years fade fair<br />fall is all<br />from lights<br />like i did for you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:66849 2007-11-27T01:23:06Z 2007-11-27T01:23:06Z clocks control the peasants urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:66798 2007-11-24T07:29:46Z 2007-11-24T07:29:46Z i wish to god that id just been stabbed urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:66439 2007-11-22T17:39:22Z 2007-11-22T17:39:22Z heaven ain't hard to find urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:66166 2007-11-07T22:29:18Z 2007-11-07T22:29:18Z pete doherty, back in rehab urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:65923 2007-11-06T05:10:34Z 2007-11-06T05:10:34Z stayed gone for too long urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:65587 2007-11-06T05:09:51Z 2007-11-06T05:09:51Z the science of sleep urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:65457 2007-11-06T05:09:37Z 2007-11-06T05:09:37Z the was no in between urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:65279 2007-11-06T05:06:01Z 2007-11-06T05:06:01Z doesnt have to be so complicated urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:64799 2007-11-04T21:39:28Z 2007-11-04T21:39:28Z "its for no one but me"<br /><br />write your own happiness urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:64423 2007-10-30T16:21:58Z 2007-10-30T16:21:58Z The world that we know is<br />Different than many would say<br />We’re not unhappy or sadly<br />Coasting through life<br />But people try to lie to<br />Make it ahead or put you to bed<br />And they’re deceitful people<br />With nothing to lend, but incompetence<br /><br />Is this a slideshow<br />Of a sideshow<br />Or a life that’s been<br />Fulfilled<br /><br />Is this a drama<br />Or a comedy that<br />Tells a tale of<br />Who will<br /><br />Is this indecent<br />Or a breach in<br />A plan that’s been<br />Distilled<br /><br />We met a homeless<br />Prophet who no one else saw<br />He opened our eyes to our lives<br />As we can recall<br />And so many passed by<br />With closed eyes not wanting to see<br />As if his existence had led up<br />To that very day, and for us just the same<br /><br />We’re coming back for you Stanley<br />Either way<br /><br />Is this a slideshow<br />Of a sideshow<br />Or a life that’s been<br />Fulfilled<br /><br />Is this a drama<br />Or a comedy that<br />Tells a tale of<br />Who will<br /><br />Is this indecent<br />Or a breach in<br />A plan that’s been<br />Distilled<br /><br />The world’s at war now<br />And somehow we’ve lost it again<br />early October and gusto<br />is on his way home, one more month to go<br />and armies fall out of steel mouths<br />to incite the attack<br />is it for freedom or good fun<br />we’ve taken to that<br /><br />Is this a slideshow<br />Of a sideshow<br />Or a life that’s been<br />Fulfilled<br /><br />Is this a drama<br />Or a comedy that<br />Tells a tale of<br />Who will<br /><br />Is this indecent<br />Or a breach in<br />A dream that’s been<br />Distilled<br /><br />Life really makes one wonder<br />What’s under the original intents<br />is this all just circus sideshow<br />with us as the cast, and a fake audience<br />is it all just a show to<br />feel true, or are we complete<br />is the audience for real<br />when it yells and tirelessly claps, or is it all preplanned tracks<br /><br />Is this a slideshow<br />Of a sideshow<br />Or a life that’s been<br />Fulfilled<br /><br />Is this a drama<br />Or a comedy that<br />Tells a tale of<br />Who will<br /><br />Is this indecent<br />Or a breach in<br />A dream that’s been<br />Distilled urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:64027 2007-10-24T22:01:34Z 2007-10-24T22:01:34Z its like erotic ironic cuz im semi-psychotic im hitting switches on bitches like ive been fixed with hydraulics urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:63897 2007-10-18T03:05:53Z 2007-10-24T20:35:18Z the things you say<br />you see are nothing<br />that mean much to me<br /><br />youre washed out<br />upside down<br />hung out to dry<br />again<br /><br />say what you will<br />believe relief can<br />come from deceit<br />and i hear you<br />but nothing you say<br />can get to me<br /><br />you make your promises<br />that both of us know<br />you will break<br />and i dont care<br />either way<br />just don't<br />make them to me<br /><br />perhaps you believe them<br />to be true, but no matter<br />what you do<br />if you dont start<br />to act out<br />you'll always be alone<br /><br />and dont call me<br />because i'll be<br />asleep if i ever<br />decide to leave urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:63674 2007-10-17T00:09:52Z 2007-10-17T00:09:52Z do you miss me miss misery urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:63237 2007-10-11T06:09:27Z 2007-10-11T06:09:27Z you said that you loved me why dont you fuck off urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:62999 2007-10-07T23:05:37Z 2007-10-07T23:05:37Z "fuck all y'all"<br /><br /> -2Pac urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:62755 2007-10-07T19:59:44Z 2007-10-07T19:59:44Z i wish to god that id just been stabbed urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:62537 2007-10-04T04:39:09Z 2007-10-04T04:39:09Z the heavens have declared war on the ground<br />and silence has been captured by sound<br />the wind has an alliance with the sea<br />to crumble the mountains and drop the trees<br />The ground has absolutely no choice but to comply<br />and the sun and moon refuse to share the same sky<br /><br />the world's at war<br />october 4, 2006<br /><br />The wind once existed as merely a breeze<br />and the trees were once nothing but seeds<br />twas the wind who scattered the seeds as a breeze<br />and the rain from the sky that rose them to trees<br />so the ground and the trees all result from the sky<br />and the breeze that often blew by<br />But now the breeze is a wind and the sky has a friend<br />to destroy what it once took the time commend<br /><br />the world is at war<br />october 4, 2006<br /><br />Now the stars and moon refuse to shine at night<br />because the sun forbade then to sleep in daylight<br />the sea and the sky always replenish supplies<br />to fuel the ongoing war that occupies everyday life<br />between sea, wind, mountain, tree, ground, and sky<br />it is never known who will win or survive<br /><br />the world is at war<br />october 4, 2006<br /><br /><br />4 years ago today, Radiohead played sound advice amphitheatre in support of Hail to the Thief. 1 year ago today i wrote this song. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:62238 2007-10-03T03:35:29Z 2007-10-03T03:35:29Z its only a matter of time<br />before the english march in<br />and take it over<br /><br />its only a matter of time<br />before the germans march right<br />back into the rhineland<br /><br />What is it you do i implore<br />whats it for<br />took a look almost as long<br />as the thirty years' war<br /><br />its only a matter of thought<br />before the Indians come back<br />and scalp us all<br /><br />its only a matter of patience<br />before we realize that<br />theres nobody waiting<br /><br />what is it youre looking for<br />whats the score<br />death toll just as large<br />as the second world war<br /><br />why are both your eyes still sore<br />take a tour of the museum<br />rhineland, riverboat floor<br /><br />what is it you do i implore<br />whats it for<br />took a look almost as long<br />as the thirty years' war urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:61988 2007-10-02T19:35:20Z 2007-10-02T19:35:20Z left hand on the cup<br />right foot on the kick drum<br />blaring away some anthem<br /><br />right hand on a cigarette<br />blowing my worries away<br />my cares are few today<br /><br />scrape off your teeth<br />and ill smoke it<br />im gonna throw up<br />im gonna throw up<br /><br />go ahead<br />scrape off your teeth<br />and i'll smoke it<br />im gonna vomit<br />im gonna vomit<br /><br />head down on the telephone<br />talking to no one<br />no clue what im doing<br /><br />eyes staring off at nothing<br />no clue where im going<br />no clue what im doing<br /><br />dry gin alize champagne<br />ease the pain<br />but go ahead and scrape your teeth<br /><br />late nights long life short days<br />its ok<br />go ahead and scrape your teeth<br /><br />so i<br />i can throw up again<br />and vomit nothing<br />because the lining of my stomachs gone<br />i wanna throw up again<br />but i cant<br />because theres nothing left to purge<br />oh how i urge you<br />scrape your teeth<br />ill take one more hit<br />of relief urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:61472 2007-09-25T01:36:23Z 2007-09-25T01:36:23Z everything youre in order<br />get in order, i implore you<br />if you want i'll get it for you<br />i'll get it for you, you know<br /><br />im all doped on prescription pills<br />living life by the man<br />getting my cheap thrills<br /><br />i'm all doped up on prescription pills<br />dont ask me about pain<br />i dont know how it feels<br /><br />everyone youve gone crazy<br />youre all crazy, dont you blame me<br />if its needed you can do it blame free<br />just dont defame me, dont try to change me<br /><br />brothers you've all left me<br />sisters upset me, but im regret free<br />if you strive to see me on the marquee<br />or its just a bad dream, dont say your sorries<br /><br />im all doped up on prescription pills<br />i make sure to take two<br />after every meal<br /><br />im all doped up on prescription pills<br />my life could be better<br />if i kept it together<br />but all im keeping together<br />makes it hard to remember urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:61317 2007-09-19T04:31:35Z 2007-09-19T04:31:35Z "i may not always love you<br />but long as there are stars above you<br />you never need to doubt it<br />i'll make you so sure about it<br />god only knows what i'd be without you<br /><br />if you should ever leave me<br />life would still go on believe me<br />the world would show nothing to me<br />so what good would living do me<br />god only knows what i'd be without you"<br /><br /> -Brian Wilson urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:60885 2007-09-16T08:35:55Z 2007-09-16T08:35:55Z i hope you feel better<br />despite more recent times<br />my eyes cant get much wetter<br />as my time ticks off your life<br /><br />i hope you feel better<br />because no one else does<br />all so consumed and consumed<br />by the same mouth that consumed you<br /><br />i hope you feel better<br />i'll call you tomorrow<br />in hopes that you'll be able<br /><br />i hope things getter better<br />i hope people leave me alone<br />i hope the sky keeps closed up<br />and hollywood blows up the world<br /><br />i hope what sorts whats life out<br />dont let the time out <br />of what's line of vision<br /><br />pretty soon what'll look around<br />and be somewhere<br />but what wont know how what got there<br /><br />all alone watching whats tv<br />whats news to what<br />is old to me<br />whats good for what<br />is bad for me<br />theres no compatibility<br /><br />so i can be clear<br />as long as ive got you this near<br />less than a mile, and its all worthwhile<br />in the end urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:masochisticnarc:60588 2007-09-16T04:24:50Z 2007-09-16T04:24:50Z im not even satisfiable baby